Can I Forgive You? Poem by zarya kasendra

The pain and fear,
they won't touch me.
So I turn back my heart
to the day we first met.
You said 'the artist,
must look with a heart'.
But you got mine,
so the pain and fear
won't touch me.
The devils got my heart,
I left it for safekeeping with you.
Now it hurts,
its got cut.
Cuts with knives.
Now I feel pain,
I will think about this all my life.
The devils got my secrets,
you swore you will never tell.
Now i feel fear,
but i think its time,
to pick myself up.
Should i choose the one way,
which would destroy my life
My worlds not broken,
it's not gold.
i am finally boxing shadows
of my past.
Pen and Paper lying
beside me not a word forth coming.
Paper turning yellow,
with age my eyes are finally closing,
for the last time.
I breathe my last breath,
Can I Forgive You?