Breaking My Heart Poem by Lydia Thacker

I don't want to leave you
I don't want to cry
I don't want to go to bed
Wondering how you are each night

I want to spend forever
With you snuggled in my arms
The thought of being away from you
Is breaking my heart

I'm tired of not having a choice
Of having to walk away
I wanted you before you were
You gave me life that day

She brought your face near mine
And introduced you as 'Mammy's boy'
I never imagined that in my life
I'd know such profound joy

But now I'm a fleeting fragment
An occasional in your eyes
A sometime spectre which comes and goes
In a life which I despise

I had no choice but to let you go
You're my son, after all
I had to protect you from his threats
Never thought that it would maul

My heart and mind the way it has
My life's in disarray
And once again I face the fact
That I have to go away

I never thought I would miss someone so
I never thought it would make me cry
I never dreamed doing what was best for you
Would make me die inside.