Ben Poem by Otega A

I thought I could easily understand
How you could easily demand to leave me.
But I am grieved and upheaved with disbelief Ben
Wondering again, and again, where I went wrong.

Ben, here I am, only this moment
Facing the last moments of my life
Contemplating how swiftly my breath should cease
To end it all; to put the end to the strife
Hauled on me since the moment
You said you no longer love me.

I only pray and cry when the nights would come
Coz I know, again, you wouldn't come home to cuddle me to sleep.
I am wretched and miserable from all the cold and loneliness
Comforted only by wet blankets soaked in tears
And all the blights I can ever detest.

You had to go to Jane's, where the sun is brighter;
Coz I am laughable, blank and naive for your dreams
So you perceive and profess
Even when I cry and my tears would flow in endless streams.

I gave you not only my love but also my life
The moment you kissed me and promised it forever.
I love you still; with my breath entirely I love you still
Just as I know you'll always love me somewhere deep in your heart.

I am soaked in confusions;
Wrapped in vanity, I am hollow and vain.
Whatever I can, I'll do in a different way to keep you to me.
Mum begged me to put you aside for a better man to come;
Dad has confessed his regrets for me, coz I love you the way I do.
They don't understand; they don't know I gave it all to you.
I am void, filled only with emptiness; nothing else to give another.
That you must know; that you must understand.

So love me; please pretend you love again.
Please me; please say something to make me smile again.
I am only balanced on a knife's edge; fading off without gain.
Please confess you still love me even if you don't;
Just say something to save me I plead.