Appointment In The Clouds Poem by Cyrena Limage

Am I suppose to die now?
If I am, my problems will be gone
I will be completely at rest
Although I can't say,
'I did my best, I did my best'

The Sun will shine
The blue sky will be all mine
I'll be at heaven's gate
With a frown upon my face
Looking straight into the Lord's eyes
I can feel the wrath that it lies

O... how disappointed he is in me
I gaze down staring at a red sea
I notice that I'm leaking blood
I can feel how ashamed the Lord is in me
I tell him I'm sorry
But he just shook his head and walked away

I hate myself
For I can no longer pray
For I wish he can forgive me
But he has not been doing that lately
I wish I never made that choice
But now it's too late...
He took away my voice