*all I See* Poem by kenya black

All I see is him, and her
Vivid, so vivid
And keen moments, keen and hasty...
I wish I never saw them
How they both haunt me continuously
Id rather be alone...
Thick walls all around me
Hot heat waves absorbing in my body
Heavy fast breaths escaping me...
I want to forget!
I want to forget!
The man I loved
What he did...
How can I ever forgive him...
Feeling insecure in my heart
Not knowing what will come of us next
There I wave in unison
Wave in unison with the silent pain that breifly escapes my voice...
Oh, how I hate him
Hate that girl...
Hate to see pictures in my head
Waiting for him every night, , ,
Trusting what he says with my lips
But mind, heart, and soul feel unkept promises
with each and every disappointment
That feeds of my sanity...
All I see is his lies
All I see is that girl intimate, with him...
All I see is blue, red, and black
Sadness, broken fate, and dead innocence with my death
Physically I am sane and calm and neat and fine and blind
Inside I am dead.
He killed me
Killed my heart and hoped to die.
Hoped to feed me to the wolves of nine circles of hell
With one head, teo, no three
Silent...Silence..
Being quiet only hides my insanity of jelousy and pain
Yet all I see is a fire of eternity
Me, burning
Him smiling, getting what he wanted
A girl who he killed by the love of his own hands
All I see is gold
All I see is a dead end
All I see is insecurity
Take away these painful pictures of insanity....