Afraid Again Poem by Maya Hanson

Lately I'd rather be crazy
than turning in circles
at the top of a lighthouse
that won't let me see anything

I'm free and captured,
broken and saved,
I gifted you with forever
before I saw the horizon
covered in flames and flashes

I'm conscious and asleep,
reviving something that's
been alive inside me all this time

Maybe I was wishing then
running from myself
but in my mind the sparks
were not just dangerous, but beautiful

Now the fire that spills from your eyes
is just ashes,
I can spill away all the slumbering sorrow
and conjure up its end

Maybe I'm thinking
of a way to go
back to love

but then there's wind and earth and always fire
and I'm afraid of you again.