Acting Selfishly Poem by Guarded Heart

How did it ever happen?
How could i not see?
That all the while i was acting selfishly
Wanting more, wanting to be free
My mistakes ranking with a greek tragedy
The worlds accusations echoing in me
Someone elses anger raging around me
Off others moods and emotions i feed
Constant crave for affection, i seek
To feel living is something i need

When i told you i was coming back, i lied
When i said i'd see you again,
I knew this was really the last time
When i said i knew you loved me
Inside i knew it was a lie
She told me to leave
Now she's asking why
I turned my back on a part of my family
I threw away a part of me
I thought it would better me
Now i know i acted selfishly

But if i had never left, i wouldn't be where i am now
I wouldn't have the people that i do around
I wouldn't have found someone to love me
I wouldn't be so close to free
If i had let you keep me
And shelter me, hide me from the world
So that nobody could see the potential in me
Nobody could see what i could be
I'm not the only one who acted selfishly

Turn your back on me
Scold the family
All because they still want to be a part of me
It's sad that you'll never see
Your daughter graduateing
And when she gets married, where will you be?
What about my children, will you push them away to?
Though i think i've decided that they will have no part in you
You don't deserve chance's
Not in the past, future, or present
Maybe one day we will sit down to see
Just which one of us acted truly selfishly