A Poem About Tomorrow Poem by Vonnie Postit

ever since i started growing up the only thing that's grown is ego fear

like smoking my cigarette on my parent's front lawn, not the sidewalk because someone could see me and afterwards i wash my hands like Judas did

i find i do not like christmas.
giving presents in exchange for love
eating food in exchange for a thank you
i find i do not like breathing

smoking
in my dreams and getting out of bed to just have a cigarette this is not a poem about

smoking
this is a poem about why i do not want to live
this is a poem about why i do not want to die

on new Years i will spend the whole day apologizing and drinking my parents margarita mix because after all
choosing to live (love) is a high school afterparty (fear) and everyone is laughing (dream) because puberty is funny that way (lies

i do not tell my mother i smoke cigarettes.

i do not tell my mother i love her.

i do not tell her i am unhappy living with her.

i tell my ex-girlfriend that we can be friends when she breaks up with me and i

smile when my grandfather says i've gained weight.

i'm growing up in anticipation.soon i will be 21 and life will seem boring again
i look forward to it anyway;

i find i do not like christmas, and this is not a poem about smoking.

this is a poem about why i chose to get out of bed on christmas Anyways.

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