How did everything become so different?
I don't understand how this drastic change can be so easy.
It's a complete 180 but I'm still holding on.
I think I'm starting to become strong.
Things don't bother me the way they used to.
Instead now I see the change and work around it.
I'm only struggling with one change right now.
Maybe it's not even a change but just a new revelation.
I've always been able to ignore feelings like this
But I can't seem to do so this time.
I honestly have no idea how long this feeling has been there
But right now its hitting me like a ton of bricks.
I may have inertly ignored it the whole time
Not once realizing that it was there.
But now that I am freed it's like it's taking over my air.
It's all that I can think about, day in and day out.
It's filling up my dreams like a rainfall after a drought.
I'm honestly a little scared, I'm not used to being this out of control.
I seem fine on the outside but inside it's taking toll.
But it all feels so good. I don't think I wanna be in control.
Just let my feelings run wild and see what will be told.
The only thing I can do myself is keep myself headstrong
So that I can keep on feeling good no matter what goes wrong.
I know you might be reading this but you don't even know who you are.
You'll find out in the end but that distance might be far.
I don't want to keep this secret but it cannot be told aloud.
Very few know what I'm talking about so this note may seem rather odd.
I do the dumbest things to keep you from finding out
Even though they should actually tell you what's going about.
I know your smart so maybe you already have a clue
But all I can do right now is keep feeling for you.
~04/07/11~
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem