A Broken Heart Poem by O I

My heart is broken
Still am not angry
I am just in the balance of feelings
Iam cold, hot and worm
Like twilight -
Not dark not bright
My thoughts –
Sensible, senseless and void
I laugh, smile, chuckle
I am hopeful, discouraged and indifferent
Just weak but strong and lax

A new love I want to seek
The old one I want to have again
No! I don’t want any love anymore
Am I stupid, wise or just with common sense?
I think I have found it
I think I just lost it
No! I am looking for nothing
I feel like drinking, eating and fasting
Right now, I want to sleep, be awake and doze
I am in doubt, decision and just waiting on fate
Should I be with old friends, make new ones or keep to myself

In all these, only one must be taken and others cast out
The root question is:
Do I want my love back?
At return, will I forgive and take back
Well, I don’t know and I know.