Unspoken Hope Poem by blue serene

How many times would I feel hurt with my wrong actions?
Perhaps I’m not thinking so well,
Coz I wanted that person to know how was and I am feeling before and at this moment.
You might never know coz I never told you.
Coz I didn’t want to bother you at all.
If you might think and ask, am I regretting this?
Then I am painfully regretting it every now and then.
You may leave and stay away from me,
I would accept that coz my actions drove you into that decisions.

However, deep inside I would never want to lose you.
Losing you would be my biggest mistake done in my life.
I would never ask you to believe me at all,
Coz you may not do it.

Doubting your friendly love is a sin.
Coz as a matter of fact, I’m not doubting you instead I’m doubting myself.
Things will never hold up on me coz I never stop doubting.
Forgive me, if there’s still a space left in your heart for me,
Even it will take a long time.
I will wait for that time,
Where you can be able to accept me once again.
Until then, I will just keep waiting.