No Poem by Halana Williams

you can't change me
they already tried

i gave up on hope
so why don't you?
i don't care if you cry

people tell me i'm always grumpy
well damn it, why the hell you so happy?
nothing to smile about anymore

surrounded by sickness and death
how can you smile at that?
i'm not gonna fake amusement

in my face
i'm not going ot pretend everything's all right
you keep pestering me about this happiness
....this joy

well tell me where it is!
is it here? there?
....anywhere?

then it must not exist
But ell me one thing..
People say that
happiness is blis

Am i too blind to see it?