Just Go Away? Poem by Shelby Jasmin Estrada

Everyday there is a feeling
I feel lost and unloved
My depression hurts
I'm not sure why I feel this
Why am I depressed?
Who has hurt me?
I have no clue
It doesn't feel right to smile
When I smile
It feels like I'm trying it for the first time
I have an empty feeling in my heart
I'm starting to think it's because I have no one to hold me
Am I love sick?
Do I miss him too much?
He lives so far away...
I don't know why I did this to myself
I try to tell myself it's all going to work out
I'm going to be with him soon
Distance can't keep us apart
The tequilla I drink alone on the kitchen floor does not help
It takes my mind off how much I hate myself, but not how much I love him
He is everything to me
I fell in love for the first time
And he lives far away
I sometimes feel like ridding this pain
End it all
Make it disappear