Beyond the province of the mind
branches twist and forever clutch
thin grey witch tresses we seek and find
...
Think you the dandelion have thoughts of self improvement?
tries perhaps to be more like the peonies
dreams of just once being in the flower show
and dazzling all who go
...
Nothing but a spiders web of nerves
Expecting flies and payment for ones labor
Or someone cold into a warm spot sinking
To wrap in a quilt of bliss
...
Since you are gone the stones lie differently along the ground
and words that are the same now have a different sound
-and-
sharp and clear in early dawn there is a road I cannot travel on
...
Bright flowers
Some our hands must pick
these flowers so rare and bright
...
She went to gather
Fruit from the wild plum tree
that was uphill and hidden from the house
...
You cannot know
For you will be dead
When the fleeting hint
Of perfume's shed
...
A yellow dress for sale
Worn only twice
As good as new
At a very low price
...
Yearnings unexplored
By dint of habit
Can become such cruel entrapment
...
Heaven may not be connected
to this star and survival may
not be equated to
an on-goingness
...
Be it a velvet gown
Be it a laughing clown
Be it a castle tall
Anything at all
...
It is the body
That remembers with no strain:
it hardly does to trust
the brain-poor thing
...
I will go early
And feast on doughnuts
(The kind with the jelly in the middle)
...
I did nothing special
On the day
They put the two youngsters
In their graves
...
All that exists is worthy of love
For all that exist is life
And life is worthy of love
If it be worthy of anything
...
I held the light in my heart
Even as in the long cold dark night
One holds the reflection of the
sun unrisen
...
I Was Born In Youngstown, Ohio I am one of those numerous people who was born in Ohio but moved away at a very young age, in my case about six years old, and not far away did I move, only across the state line from Youngstown to the area around Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, then later up to a farming community between there and the New York state line, still later across that line to the furniture manufacturing town of Jamestown, in western New York where I finished high school at Jamestown High School (Red Raiders) and I married in the same month. This was a rather compact area (Jamestown) and this was my whole bailiwick, though it encompassed a number of ways of living, and several distinct environments. There were to a large extent several kinds of families; as I recall, Swedish, Irish, or Italian, and at least one family of African American heritage.... I always supposed this to be so because in our high school which served the whole town, there was but one black student, named Wharton, who was a star athlete, and he sat behind me in one class. I fit in just dandy, being mostly Irish with a very stern strain of Scot Highland for the rest.... My girlfriends were all Swedish and my boyfriends were Italian, except one who was English, a real weird thing to find up there. But I managed to marry a fellow whose ancestry was Dutch. I didn't have anything to do with the Irish, which perplexed my mother. I couldn't bear how brash those boys were, and all that! Italian boys read you Shakespeare in the park and sang to you accompanied by their mandolins or guitars, and were ever so polite as their mothers insisted. It was very hard even then to find an obedient boy, especially an obedient Irish boy. But I found Ernie outside Jamestown in a little town up the lake, we didn't fall in love or anything so corny as that, we both just decided we hadn't met anyone we liked better, so why not, and let's get on with living. Except that it wasn't for long.... We worked at Chautauqua -On-The-Lake summers, and at Vassar College, Poughkeepsie, New York. in the winters and when my husband contracted TB we could no longer work at either place. But it wasn't until a few weeks before he would be gone that we had by this time covered a good share of the South and the West of the USA together... We had been boon companions, we had truly lived our lives together, traveled to many-many places together, enjoyed ourselves together, suffered many degrading experiences together. I would never find another friend like Ernie. When Ernie died he was two months past his twenty-ninth birthday. But he had lived as he decided for the two years of life left to him. I ruled out begging and crying on my side, but we probably didn't realize how final death was, we couldn't realize, we thought our own strength would always be there as it always had been. So that after engaging ourselves in all the outside work we could, including field cropping and in the vineyards, we finally came home and Ernie died in the sanatorium there, with all the hateful associations and sufferings we both had with it. After Ernie's death I returned to California to see if what I had found there before was as horrible as it seemed, as we had lived mostly in migrant camps, Ernie and myself, yes we two strange birds were there in the mists of the Okie flock. After a bit I tried to return east, but I was diverted, even as Robert Frost was diverted, I had to cross a relentless stream of cars to reach a possible ride heading east, on the superhighway. So much easier was it for me to get a lift and go back to Modesto, and that made all the difference.....)
Beyond The Province Of The Mind
Beyond the province of the mind
branches twist and forever clutch
thin grey witch tresses we seek and find
Dry leaves to crumble-with the crumbling shrouds -
and under the tree roots still mud brown
hidden places too- where their gods went down
There in the rivers flowing
dim in the light a strange knowing
some thread that answers to waters going
and the tangled ghosts in the winds blowing