Zuleyma Garcia

I took a deep breath and said
Careline i have something to say.
I love you so much and stay strong.
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I see my skin as paper,
i cut and cut but i don't feel pain.
I see my face like a mask,
so i hide and put a new one on.
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I lost you once
and I thought I would never loose you again.
I picture us together again
but I know that I will never see you.
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I am not who you think I am.
I am myself, I act how i wan't to act.
I dont care what people think or say.
I am my family. My family accepts me for who I am.
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I wish you knew the pain i feel,
but you would not last.
I wish you can be in my shoes,
but you wont be able to walk.
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How could you have left
I was only a little girl
and as you would say
I was daddy's little girl
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I wish I was happy
I wish I didn't care
I wish it didn't matter
I wish it didn't hurt
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It didn't took to long to see that what I was doing felt wrong, the feeling of hatred by many including my mother, the feeling of judgement, the feeling of power but most importantly the feeling of regret and hatred towards my self.

I asked my self quite often if what I was doing was right. What was there to loose and what was there to gain.
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If something is already broken
it is impossible to break it again.
If something has already sunk
it wont be able to sink again.
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If i were to be held at gun point
I wold not beg or plea for my life
Ill rather have someone else end this nightmare
than ending it my self.
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I smile but I'm not happy
I laugh but I don't find it funny
I ask but i don't want to know
I talk but I'm not being heard
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I am more than just your daughter.
I am more than Just your sister.
I am more than just your girlfriend.
I am more than just a student.
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