Yogi! why are you so much pessimistic. Be optimistic. You are a good poet. You may get death at any time but you are not going to get this life, I repeat this life, again. No doubt death is not the end and it is transformation of one foem of life into another. But this life too may be made attractive. I am also a tired man, tired of my life, too; but when I see my grand children I wish to live because I love them and they love me too. Love may be with any one. Look for some one who loves you, love him and wish to live.
How to see ourselves?
Stand before the looking glass once.
You will see yourself in, what you are.
Observe neatly your face and ask yourself questions.
You will smile, you will laugh, you will be ashmed of yourself.
Talk to the front man and remember your past events.