Susan Cook

I miss you.

I have tried to turn my heart to stone
but it won't let me
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I don't want to be clever or witty or wise
I just want to be true.

Truth?
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So tender, so gentle your touch
Like your heart lived in your fingertips.

I felt like a newborn, like the most cherished possession without ownership.
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I have a letter from you,
I have cards,
I have pictures,
I have memories.
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Our path?
the path of our hearts
the path of our souls.
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It's the moments of selfless reflection that I most enjoy.
When my unconditional love returns.
When I possess nothing,
and so I possess everything.
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Tiny droplets of pain arise in my eyes
and trickle slowly down my nose,
dropping what was to the floor.
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Happy birthday darling.

Know I still think of you
Know I still love you.
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I could give you what we both knew possible:

To be known by another, uncovered in each others presence,
To float on by with the passage of time, content in our nothingness,
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You made me whole
You brought me balance.

Love that settled me into understanding
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I need to know that you are happy,
then I can let you go.

I need to know that you are loved, and give love, in a way that sets you free,
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Each day passes and I miss you more
Each day passes and I love you more,
Each day passes and I wonder if what we share can withstand the distance, the time,
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There have been a hundred thousand moments since we last spoke.

Across the world,
each moment has contained a million memories.
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What does it take to follow our love,
What does it take to jump off that cliff

Sheer faith?
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You said:
‘you will always have my heart’.

But it’s like you have really left it with me.
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We had the same kind of need to be ‘ fine’
We had the same kind of need to smile
We had the same kind of need for approval
We just didn’t do unhappy for so many reasons
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