Bye Poem by lou shandra wright

I can hear the people crying
I know exactly what they'll say.
'She didn't seem depressed,
she wore a smile everyday.'
But only if they knew
that my smile was painted on.
Wore only as a disguise
to mask the fact that something's wrong.
I hate to disappoint them
but i just can't go on.
Living a life I didn't ask for
with years that last too long.
So I went inside my closet
with a blade and locked the door.
I asked God to please forgive
and for his mercy I implore.
I carved the knife's signature
deep into my wrist.
And laid against the door
wondering if I'd be missed.
I never was good at anything
and friends I couldn't maintain.
But since I succeed at my suicide
everyone knows my name.