As Long As I Live Poem by Hannah Davies

I crawled into the bed
Listened to what was said.
Was given a hug
Can't believe I was such a mug.

You said you loved me
And that all you wanted was to be happy.
I felt secure
As we watched TV some more.

You touched me down below
I was scared but tried not to let it show.
I tried to pull away
But you asked me to stay.

You said it was OK
That it was normal to be hugged in that way.
You started to cry
And I asked you why?

You made me feel sorry for you
So I kept my mouth shut and let you do what you wanted to do.
I stared at the TV
Not fully understanding waht was happening to me.

It didn't last for that long
And I thought maybe I had got things wrong.
It wasn't all that bad
And I hated to see you so sad.

It didn't happen every night
But when it did you made sure we were out of sight.
Why was I so naive?
Why didn't I just get up and leave?

I thought this would make you happy
That this was your way of showing you loved me.
Something special between me and you
It wasn't til I was a bit older and could see right through.

It was easier to stay quiet
Then create a family riot.
I couldn't betray
You were still my mum at the end of the day.

Then you let your boyfriend have a go
Covered up everything so that the truth wouldn't show.
You turned a blind eye
And I will never understand why?

When I finally did speak out
You made out you didn't know what I was talking about.
Left on my own to defend
Knowing that on you I couldn't depend.

You just turned your back on me
Not a single word of apology.
True love was something you were unable to give
The memories I will have for as long as I live.