Rebecca Lawrence

I surrender to sleep
that one release
from my pain and grief
for even nightmares
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They don't know I'm dead
They don't see the blood
They think my heart still beats
They ignore the rotting flesh
...

I see my horror in his eyes
Hear my fear in his voice
Yet he boldly shouts what I fear to even think
We face the same struggles
...

I appear silent
I stand in the background
And remain unnoticed
yet I am screaming, shouting
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How many times have I sat here alone
how many times have I sat weary to the bone
how many times have I searched for hope
how many times have I tried to cope
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I scare the ones I love
I drive them away while trying
to bring them close
wanting to stop the flow of tears
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I am afraid
but I don't flee
I am hurt
but I don't stop
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