Rakhi Oza

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Your name is like life to me..
I live with it..
I'd never reject it..
I'd rather accept it..wholeheartedly, happily, positively..
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Every night I want to die but I'm never dead!
Every morning I want to live but I'm never alive!
Everytime I want to laugh&I find the corner of my eye dripping!
I can't handle too much happines, because its just too rare!
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Bruised and hurt.. I walked miles alone...bleeding.. I was thirsty.. I saw the sea there... Calling me loud out with its noisy waves... The storms were approaching me with their arms stretched wide.. I was thirsty so I had the salty water burning my throat deep as the salt striking walls of my nerves and smashing my pain down.. The sand hid my blood as it took them back to the sea along with the waves.. With pace of the waves I lost my courage... I lost my strength with the pace of wind that blew my hair silently keeping my wounds untouched.. I was finding a middle ground between my courage and failure.. I don't wanna be brave anymore.. I don't wanna be courageous anymore.. I don't wanna be strong anymore...

I just want to cry out loud.. So loud that my throat hurts.. So bad that eyes bleed... I just wanna go insane and scratch my own wounds because that's the only way to feel better..
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