You'Re Gone Poem by Victoria Gauci

You're gone and I never expected,
For our friendship to wither away,
I never saw it coming, now I'm confused,
I need the words you refuse to say,

Like stone you stood on the doorstep,
Letting me enter the room of despair,
There was hurt said in both directions,
And now it's like you don't care,

What happened to you to make it so,
You can't look love in the eye,
You hide yourself so deeply within,
All I can do now is cry,

I cry for the pain I know your hiding,
In caverns that nobody sees,
They've become the shelter you share,
With all of your memories,

What can I do, I'm so far away,
I feel helpless and so very alone,
Why did you wait till the very last day,
To let your true feelings be known?

Your fists were clenched, your eyes ablaze,
As I sat and listened steadfast,
I didn't know the depth of your pain,
You've carried around from your past,

Is it worth all the anquish and torment,
Feeling dark and foreboding each day?
Don't you want to extend the life that you live,
Finding peace in some other way?

This pain that I have is tearing me apart,
It is deep and sharp and greedy,
I need your forgiveness and straightaway,
For nothing else will feed me.

For Laura 12/29/2010