You Are So Beautiful It Hurts Poem by Sheikh Ahmed Tijan Bah

Assalamu Alaikum WaRahmatullahi WaBarakatuhu ukhti

You are so beautiful. You are so beautiful it hurts me that I don’t know you yet.
Who knows, I probably have never met you yet. But I strongly believe that the day I finally get to meet you will be the perfect day for you to finally meet me. Of cause this day will be the day we get to meet physically because I don’t know if you have but I have met you. Not only have I met you but I have lived with you… in my dreams. I have had conversations with you. I have watched you sleep next to me. I have being there for you and so have you being there for me, for all the sad moments and for all the happy moments and I may have never touched you but in my dreams, you have laid next to me and we cried together. Habibi, in my dreams you have laid next to me and we have laughed together. In my dreams I have made you cry because that’s how dumb I am but I have also managed to make you smile by just looking at your beautiful face. And if you are wondering how that would make you smile, well, just looking at you will make me smile, and a smile on my face means a smile on your face and vice versa because that’s how much we will love each other.

Sometimes I lay on my bed and think about how you’ll make me the man I continue to struggle to be.
How you’ll wake me up at 3 in the morning for “Tahajjud” or how you’ll remind every Sunday evening to make intention to fast on Monday, or how I’ll recite the Quran to you to check my memorization or how I’ll always forget to call my beautiful mother who made the arrangements for our marriage in heaven and you will remind me. Sometimes I sit alone in the bus or the metro and all I think about is how I will drop our baby daughter to school and when she turns to kiss me good bye I can see you in her eyes. I sit and think about witnessing our son reciting the Quran at an event and even with the rusty echoing speakers I can still recognize your voice from the melody of his recitation.

I just want to let you know aforehand that as aforementioned I am dumb, as in, I may be a little stupid. I may be a little crazy and maybe a little insensitive, unemotional, not at all romantic, a terrible conversationalist, and maybe, just maybe, I may be very ugly too. You probably wouldn't consider me to be humorous and on a scale of 1 to 10 I will likely be a 2. But what I am trying to say is I am the farthest from perfect, but if you are anything like in my dreams, then away with Curtis Axel but you are 'Better than Perfect.' You are so beautiful that I sometimes wonder how rich I should strive to become in other to get you by my side but you are not after my imaginary wealth. You will love me for who I am and just a side note; I will be whoever you want me to be.

I promise, I will work harder than I imagine I can to connect the two dots at the end of the lines. I promise, I will be a better best friend than all your best friends combined. I promise, I will love you so much that, in your dictionary, love will have a new meaning. They say in marriage, the husband can either be happy or right so I promise, I will never be right as long as my happiness is with you. I promise I will be the husband of the year, year in year out. I promise, I will be the best father in the world in every world. I promise, I will provide for our family that they wouldn't need anything from anywhere. And if you are reading this, all I ask from you are 2 things: First, stay as awesome as you are in my dreams and even though I will inevitably make our first meeting awkward I beg you to stick through it and at the end agree to marry me. Second, please make dua to Allah SWT that when we do meet and get married I will be able to keep my promises and that I will be a husband and father that you and Him both will be happy with.