Wishing For A Life I Don'T Have Poem by Andrus Cassian

I wish my life was carefree, I wish I could live in a tree
I wish I knew where my happiness is hiding
I wish my eyes could restore their color, I wish I didn't look pale
I wish my heart could be on track
I wish my mind wasn't filled with all these thoughts
I wish my hand wasn't in pain
but I don't take back the action that caused the end result
I wish I could run away but I don't have the strength
I wish I could be a star in the sky but I'll settle for less and stay human
I wish I wasn't reckless, I wish I lived restrictions
I wish I could fly
I wish I could just be me but life forbids
I wish my name was known but I'd rather be left alone
I wish my life was a song 'cause the lyrics come so easily
and I could make it last for hours and hours
but I'll settle for five minutes
to sit
to think
to stare at the sky
to get lost in the wind
to drown in my sorrow
to sort through my happiness
to complain about the time I wasted
to get the feeling back in my hand
to sing along to a sad song
to cover my face with my hands
to wish my life was carefree so I could bury the hole in me