Wish I Was Dead Poem by joe kanon

Pressure builds up I just cant take it
living in this world is just not worth it
there is nothing going right for me I just cant wait
the day ill end my life, I will finally appreciate
people think they know me, inside and out
but wrong place wrong time, I will knock you out
don't say you feel sorry for me,
I don't want your sympathy
one day we will all see,
that this world is just plain empty
I am waiting for my hour glass to end,
hoping that there is a place better than this
but there isn't,
just a world with ignorant peasants
and a fool like me waiting to finally end it
I shouldn't,
people who love their lives only say it
but I don't,
so I'm jut thinking on how I should do it.
should I make it fast where I don't feel nothing
or should I make my self suffer,
like I was crazy or something
but why do I listen to people's bullshit,
they say you need to fight for the things you love
why do I need to do anything,
I thought some thing like love is free and not worth fighting,
every time I hear people try to tell me you will be ok,
I end up cracking my teeth from all of the grinding,
stab my palms from my nails from the fist clenching
blood rushing out my ears when my head boils and smoke starts rushing
there is nothing you can do when depression builds in
you do anything to stop it from kickin in
or should I let it in
may be it wants to help and release me from my suffering
I have really had enough, its over for me, I don't care about nothing.
.......................WISH I WAS DEAD................................