Why Do You Keep On Hating Me? Poem by Heart of Ice Die Die Die

Scars running deep inside,
memories long suppressed.
Brought back to the surface,
old scars slashed open
again.
Scars now cover my body.
Inside
and out..
I never claimed I was perfect
and I never claimed I was beautiful.
But that doesn't mean
you can throw it back in my face.
It doesn't mean
that you are.
Why do you hate me
so much
that you would
make me re-live
my fucked up past.
While you threatened and abused
my mind kept jumping back
to a darkened room.
When I was four
and I had to watch
my drunken excuse of a father
beat my dog to death.
You made me re-live that.
Now,
it's seared into my mind so deeply
that it's all I can see
when I close my eyes.
It's all I can see
in the dark corners.
I see it
in the back of my head
re-playing
and re-playing.
And what do you do?
Force out an apology
so that you can continue leeching off of us.
But your 'apology'
is false and useless.
Worth less than a penny.
You sent me off the edge
once again.
Are you happy now
that you've made a little girl cry?