Why Are You Here? Poem by Tessa Monaghan

Not the best to say
but difficult to keep in
things were better
things were easier
when you were gone
thought i was done with you
long ago
years ago
now you been back in
and i feel like i have to compete.
this is not right
especially when the compitition,
is for something that IS mine.

not the best eeling
i thought i was done
apparently i was wrong.
apparently
there was some reason
that your back
in MY life...

isn't it sad
how i have to compete
for what's already mine?
hardest thing ever
you dont know
if your gonna lose whats yours
you dont know
if anything is really TRUE
you are unsure
about a lot of things,
but only
if you are gone

its all so clearer
when you are gone
im scared.
a'll admit that
i dont know what to expect.
i'm tired of competing.
wo why are you back,
back in my life?
why must i compete?

i thought
i already won
but i can tell
that i'm wrong
you are making
EVERYTHING harder for all of us.

why must i
be put in this position
to be forced to speak
in such tounge?
Speak with vain,
with envy?
why must i competet
for what i already have?
Why must it all be MORE
complicated
than it needs to be?
why are you
Still here?