Why? Poem by Safin Junayed Rouf

Why do I not feel guilt
Even after all my mistakes
Why do I not feel guilt
When I cause so much pain

Why must I suffer the consequences
When I feel no guilt for my crimes
Why must I suffer the consequences
Even though I'm surviving just fine

I wish I felt a need to correct myself
But I don't and never will
I wish I wanted to improve myself
Even though I'm consumed with guilt

Everyday as I wake from my sleep
All my actions come back as one horrendous memory
Every night as I slowly doze off to sleep
I become overwhelmed with self-induced misery

I keep playing over past events in my head
But I still can't recall the moment I strayed
I keep playing over past romances in my head
But it only leads to me feeling betrayed

In the end I don't know what more to say
If it only leads to more pain
In the end I don't know what else to do
But bid life a final adieu