Where You Have Gone Poem by Twilight Whispers

Dear Jenny,
I don't go to college today.
Instead, I cut class and wish the day away.
I watch a movie on mute and lip read the words,
As if they were things a million times I had heard.
I make some food but eat I do not,
I stare at the plate and wish it were a box.
Into that box I then would climb,
Pretending my heart belonged to a mime.
I'd walk through the forest and sit on the fence,
With the power of dreaming it turns into a bench.
I burn it to firewood and dance with the flames,
My smile returns with the orangey games.
I continue my journey and swim through the lake,
Holding my breath for the water's sake.
I reach the island where your boat has docked,
Sand and seaweed in the toes of my socks.
I shake myself dry and walk to the sun,
Which shines in spite of everything I have done.
I hope I find you here but nothing I see,
Only deep blue water winking at me.
Maybe you're swimming below with the sharks?
Maybe you've lost your way in the dark?
I can't see you and I look so hard,
Before twilight falls in my aching heart.
I give up and turn my face away,
As tears fall into the grass at the end of the day.
I pull myself out of this reverie,
Pretending you're here in my arms with me.
Underneath the earth you lie right now,
Far away and lifeless and brown.
I want you to come home and see me again,
I miss your love and I miss you, my friend.



For Jenny.
February 25th '10.