Where's ''Home''? Poem by Kaylee Lynn

Lost and confused in this circle of trouble,
I don't know what to think,
My tears my pain turns double

Screaming inside, afraid to yell out,
Looking for that one place in my heart that I can call home,
Traveling back and forth, weary from miles,
memories in my head of broken dreams, broken smiles,

Lies thrown around like fastballs,
diving into my pool of trust, infecting my soul,
Paradise turns to discomfort, freedom turns to walls,
Trying to break me down as if I am whole,

He said, she said, stop playing tug of war with my heart,
You think I am just a toy, but I'm falling apart,
Reaching into my life, ripping everything away,
Yet promising you will always stay,

Tell me where 'home' is, I haven't a clue,
Is it with her, is it with you?
Is it in the wonderful land I dream about,
Or is it the reality where we do nothing but scream and shout?

I feel as if I am disappearing, vanishing into nothing,
While you try to figure out why there is silence,
You think I am disobedient, so here comes violence

Just tell me where I can find that one place,
where there is no pain, where everything makes sense,
I need to know if that place in my mind really exists,
So from now on I will search the world,
Squinting through the mist, to find my forever