Where Are You Now Poem by Hope Franks

I hear the words as they come out
and as my heart begins to break
my mind tries to comprehend what I am being told
but I can not believe it
it cant be true, it cant be you
and for a minute I'm praying
for God to let this just be a dream
and as the tears fall
I realize that it is not - its real
I can only imagine what must be going through your mind
I can only imagine the pain your feeling
because I can feel your heart breaking
I sit here and I think back over the years
I think back to where it all began
how did I not see all the signs?
how did I not notice?
or did I choose to ignore it simply wishing it wasn't so?
you see I blame myself for where you are now
I feel as if, if I could only stopped you
then when you were still so very young
just maybe you wouldn't be where you are now
it kills me to think that you want to give up
I know you feel like we are all abandoning you
but baby boy I promise you we aren't
you see you've hit rock bottom
if you continue on the path of destruction
the next phone call I am scared to get
will be the one saying you have reached your death
and trust me when I say no one wants to let that happen
we love you to much
I know it hurts I know you are craving and confused
I know your thinking its not fair, I want out, am I stuck,
am I safe, will I die, I want to go home
but sweetheart the best place for you to start getting help
is where you are now
always remember I love you baby boy
and if I had only knew I would have done anything to
help you quit to help you escape
the terrible nightmare that is now your haunting memory
but I can say now that since time has passed
I am proud of what you have overcome
of who you are becoming
I am proud of where you are now