Whats Next? Poem by michole petersen

whats next/?
i feel like livin sucks
i feel like givin up
i dont know what to do
but to be faithful to you
im not happy any more
im tired of keepin score
i need to get out i need to be free
im done with this god please help me
whats next?
i been through the rain
and i been through the pain
tell me whats next?
i dealt with people when they were fake
i been through and conquered the heartache
whats next?
yeah i had dreams
and i had schemes
but they all fell apart right in front of me
whats next?
oh god whats next?
im scared of death
but im scared to death
watchin my life pass me by
while i sit here askin god why?
i sit here everyday lookin in ur eyes
but all i see is the devil in disguise
theres no end to this game we play
fightin all damn night and all damn day
whats next?
i been through the rain
and i been through the pain
tell me whats next?
i dealt with people when they were fake
i been through and conquered the heartache
whats next?
yeah i had dreams
and i had schemes
but they all fell apart right in front of me
whats next?
oh god whats next?
the thoughts inside my head often disappoint
fightin with myself when i know theres no point
you start to show off playin like your dumb
im so lucky my hearts already numb
i have dreams i have a life
so leave me alone get out of my life
whats next?
i been through the rain
and i been through the pain
tell me whats next?
i dealt with people when they were fake
i been through and conquered the heartache
whats next?
yeah i had dreams
and i had schemes
but they all fell apart right in front of me
whats next?
nothins next
this is the end
im not gonna make it round the next bend
i finally gave up you can finally live free
so just promise me this one thing
when the time comes you will know what comes next

BY MICHOLE PETERSEN