What Did I Do? ? ? Poem by kesi miwa

life's become a hell for me
please someone get me
out, save me from the living hell
before my life is spent

please someone tell me
what did I do?
Please tell me what I did wrong


for in this hell I sit and wonder
what could I have done?
what did I do?
To deserve this life in hell

for while others see this world
as a land of laughter and joy
I see a hell that doesn't leave
a living hell is what it is
a living hell in which I must live

My pastor tells me stories of how
everything you get is deserved,
I cant help but to wonder
what did I do to deserve this

for I have only ever known this
hell in which I live
for from the moment I was born
I was in this living hell

this living hell does haunt me
so, oh why must I be here

People see a smile as if I see it to
as if I see the joy and laughter
my smiles hide the torture
my laughter hides the pain

I wonder through this living hell
just trying to feel the rain,
the rain that does bring laughter
the rain that does bring joy

its back to church to build
a bond, a bond with a god I question
again the pastor tells, his stories
of how we deserve what all we get

I wonder what I did
before I was even born
to deserve a living hell,
to deserve a life of pain and tears

I wonder...
what did I do? ? ?