What Color Am I? Poem by Gina Albiek

Dipped in some blue
Mixed it with red
How I loved the sound of you
Singing to me in bed

Red, Red, is all I see
What color should I use?
In my head it's sickening me
Red. Now isn't this abuse?

Held my brush up high,
Where is my blue?
Maybe it's another big lie
Like the ones I heard from you

Grown up eyes,
I think I'll use some white
Between these lies,
It might make it look bright

Whispers, whispers, in the hall
Monsters forcing their way in
That little crack in the wall
It's a dark, dark night to sin

White, I lost my white
With shaky hands I drew
In the scary blackness of night
Far away, all my white flew

Lowly whispers, they're still there
I'll close my eyes,
In the morning they won't be there
I'll shut in my desperate cries

Red, Red, is all I see
I lost my colors that night
I surrender, letting it be
No color is within my sight

Whispers, whispers, all around
Shameless whispers fill my head
I grew tired blocking that sound
All my white was painted red

What color am I?
Color of fear
What color am I?
I don't belong here