***were You There? *** Poem by Lesa MRK

Were you there
The day I heard the terrible news
'No heartbeat.'
Another baby I would lose?

Were you there
When I cried
Until I thought my heart
Would break,
Longing for someone
To hold my hand
As I prayed it was just
A mistake?

Were you there
The night I hemorrhaged
And I couldn't hold on
A single minute more?
Were you there
Beside me,
As I entered
Those looming hospital doors?

Were you there
When the doctor yelled
And I cried
And another ultrasound
Confirmed...
My baby had died?

Were you there
When they took me
Into surgery
For my life
Was in danger
Yet I prayed
I would die?

Were you there
When I woke up
In the operating room
Only to see
A terrible sight
I'll never find the words
To describe?

Were you there
When I lay all alone
In a hospital bed
Weak and cold,
Wishing you were there....
Just someone to hold?

No, you didn't come....
No, you weren't there....
So never again say,
You went through it with me,
For I walked that road
ALONE.