' Was Never Mine............' Poem by fawzia zie

Was never mine............


Everything was him;
Everywhere seemed he;
Knew not what to do;
But to do and give.

Infatuation it was;
Or so I thought.
'He can't be yours'
Once my friend told;

Tears beaded down;
Cuz truth was it,
Gave up hopes;
And all my dreams;

Pledged to forget him;
But failed to keep up.
'My dear friend
I just can't do it'

Little did I know;
That he would haunt me;
In my dreams and only dreams,
Dream was all it was;

Reality seemed an illusion.
What was I to do;
If he is all I could see.

Over was the infatuation,
Lived in reality;
Knew he wasn't mine;
So why should I try?

Days became weeks;
Weeks became months;
A vague bond was all it was.
Now I know he is not mine;

Still I can give the world for him
Hoped to receive;
Something in return;
Since I now know;
Even hope don't I arouse!

Intentions then;
Was stained and blurred,
Intentions now;
Is pure and clear.

Knew not what to do;
So let life steer as it would.
Little did he know;
What he had given me-

Courage, fear, determination;
And the way to go.
Thought I was going astray;
Now I hope I don't become right.

Can give the world;
For a smile of his;
Little does he know.
This wasn't infatuation;

Neither is a vacuum;
Then what is it?
I wish someone told me;
And I hope I knew!

Give it any name;
Won't make any sense;
' I can't see you hurt my friend'
I knew I surely was to be;

In a few more ticks.
But could not do anything;
To stop this rare feeling.
My destiny is written

Hurt, sorrow and broke.
Know I cant avoid it;
At least prepare for it;
Wish he would find out;

And tell me what it is.
All I can do now,
Is hope, give and dream;
Cuz I know-
he is not meant for me.




(may 2009)