Wanting To Be Free Poem by BlueStar Rising

What is wrong with me how can this be?
When will I finally get to be me?
I sit and wonder why I'm even here
Because somehow all I do is fear

Fear of the voice in my head
Screaming at me you'd be better off dead
I get angry at people but I don't know why
I tell them I'm fine when it's really a lie

Why can't I show people how I really feel?
I think to myself am I even real?
I'm stuck in this deep, dark, awful place
Will this stupid mask ever fall off my face?

I wish I could go back to the time I could clearly see
I would tell myself don't grow, you don't wanna be me
If I knew this is how I would turn out
Ii would have jumped off that bridge without a doubt

I really don't wanna feel this way
Having the voice with me everyday
Just leave me alone and let me be free
Please someone help me find the key

The key to finding my heart and soul
Then maybe I could somehow finally be whole
I want to be free from all this pain
Coz happiness is something I want to gain

So please go away and leave me alone
Instead of making my heart feel like stone
I will try and fight it the best I can
To finally beat it now that's a plan