Vampire Diary (9 April 2012) Poem by iris shih

Cloudy 9 April 2012

Dear diary,

24 hours ago…
24 hours already gone
Lighting the candle of my life time
Burning away without any heartflow

Only one day long
Which is… already too long
Keep touching the email screen
How long ago?
Tick - tack
Ticking, tacking, popping out of my own heart
Is he playing a mind game …
Come on … not again? !

Silent dead …
Tick - tack … tick - tack
Lost and found
Seconds lost
Wondering what's to be found
Dripping water along cracks of rocks
Floating into river as if the gone of the only one other
Yes maybe … as if he always says so indeed
A king as he is
has his a heart like a rock?
Has he hung me in the air?
"Yes" or "no" …
Combining letters of three or two
Asking too much?
Soul floating upon my heart …
Twisting me, squeezing me, tormenting the little me
Insecurity gives way
(is that the answer?)
At least …
For one last time
Tell me how you feel?
Let me know what I mean?
What if …
how about … what WE mean?

Yet … the air smells mean-ie
As if the little me alone in this mean-ie room
Upon the dancing of every letter in here
Along flicking the dramatic "vampire diary" fonts
Again … flashing your signature hidden beneath
Was that you? was that not you?
The signature resembling air of freedom
Just come and go
Which is always your beloved road
Twisting into a crossroads I seem not to know
Maybe one day
Explain it to me in my heart in my soul
Me