Vampire Diary 1 Poem by iris shih

Mist 8 April 2012
Dear diary,

Searching for you in the dark
turning at dozens of crossroads to seek the sparks

Yet...
no matter what worked what's worth and what triggering the barks
your reply of nothing as if me dreaming for a letter of loving
am I really so scary am I too little to be aware?
heart feeling hurt upon the blank page as if your signature
as if there is nothing I shall deserve
is that because I give no way to love game or tact?
if that's it why not let me forget you and then "so be it"
my heart tells me the otherwise
even though reality tells me to be wise
what shall I do according to what I was told?
again the same question pops out yelling for the truth
do you miss me do you not miss me
along your answer of asking me not to ask
as if so many times after choosing "forget-you-or-not"
very soon after people around hinting about not to clear the knot
the one-of-a-life-time lock endeavored by the ever-child ghost
holding the key to my heart
guiding me throughout the journey of my soul
to be or not to be
what can I do
what should I do
missing you every day is very true
so … please tell me what to do

Me