Unimaginable Poem by Annie Copper

I'm falling, breaking, crumbling, I don't even know why.
I don't know what has happened, but I feel these tears I cry.
All was fine, all was good, we were right on track,
Then something strange has happened, has he begun to crack?
I've spent the last two days waiting, hoping to hear his voice,
Then finally I speak to him and it doesn't feel like it's his choice.
He pushing hard, he's forcing, he's looking to get out,
Is this really happening, could this really come about? !
I don't know what it is I've done, I don't know what I've said,
Is it what was done before, for which he nearly fled.
I'm lost, I'm wandering, confused, I don't know which way to turn,
Am I being stupid, or has his love for me reached it's term.
I hate feeling so needy, I hate feeling like I'm crazy,
Does he understand my mind, does he know that it feels hazy?
I can't cope with not knowing, I know that he is the same,
So could he please just tell me, even if I am to blame.
I had a dream last night, of him kissing someone else,
The pain felt upon waking, felt like death itself.
So worries started festering, as they so love to do,
Reaching out within me, making my cogs unscrew.
He wakes and is unusual, something doesn't feel right,
So obviously my first thought is, did he meet a girl that night?
I hate it when the dreams I have, reach out into my mind,
Twisting it and making things, things which I'd never find.
I know that he is different, I know that he is true,
I know he'd never look around, and let this love undo.
Stupid pointless dreadful dream, I wish I'd never had,
Then maybe a marble would remain and I wouldn't feel so sad.
Despite this stupidity of mine, I know that he's not right,
He said he wants to be left alone, what has happened to his light?
It all feels like excuses, like he just wants to escape,
I shouldn't be so selfish, I should give him that life to take.
I really couldn't blame him, what is he staying for? ,
A boring ugly mother, when the worlds there for him to explore.
Love should be selfless, so I should let him be,
Even though I need him, so unimaginably.