'Understandable' Poem by Infinity Poetry

This is my absent mind
writing all my deepest emotions on paper
carelessly, all about you
everything about you drowns me
yet I can still breathe
why does every sign point me straight to you?
in your direction I speed aimlessly
how do I know you will always be there?
perhaps I just assume
or have you proven to me the unthinkable,
did you gain my trust?
i'm forever in question regaurding being with you
not because your flaws, but because your perfect
beautiful,
adventurous
and fun
your everything I need, everything I want
but i'm still scared
and to you it's okay
to you, it's understandable

-Inspired by a great friend who just wanted to give me the world, and yet again iv successfully pushed him away...I already know what iv lost, but i'm to hurt from the past to move on. At least maybe he'll run into this poem one day and find out exactly how I feel about him, but was too scared to make him mine.. I do love you, and I always will.