To My 1st Love Poem by rebekka bear

I miss you
I wish i would have never broken up with you
The day i did that
I made a big mistake
I wish i couod take it all back
Now i relize you where the one for me
But i relized that to late
I wish i could have kept
My emotions locked up inside
Because i really did and still do
Love you
You where my heart
My breath
My life
My whole world
If only i would have been smart enough
To relize this before
I do know now that
We will be friends till the end
And if you ever need
Anything or anyone
Dont hesatate to ask
Im always here like i told you before
When i promised id never leave you
I ment it i still havent left you
Im still right here waiting for you
Waiting for the day you relize
How much u truely mean to me
The day you understand
That my world still revolves around you
And always will
I miss ur smile
Ur laugh
Ur sweet gental kiss
I miss ur hugs
The way we used to joke around
I miss everything about you
About us
I know that we will probly never be together again
But i love you
I cherish you
I need you
Im so glad you forgave me for
Everything ive done to you
And even though i dont see why
You did
Im really thankful ur my best friend
We have been through so much
We have had fights and break ups
Kisses and make ups
I miss how you always knew
When something was wrong
I love how even though ive changed
You still know everything about me
I love that if i need you
I know you'll always be there
I miss being able to call you mine
I miss our late night phone calls
I miss everything we used to be
I miss you and me
I miss being able to see the love in your eyes
I miss the feel of your lips against mine
I miss how we used to text
And flirt
Ive tryed to forget about you but its to hard
Ive tryed to be mad at you
But then i just get mad at myself
Because im mad at you for something you didnt do
But the thing i miss most of all is the way our hands fit perfectly together
I hope one day we could be together again
I hope one day
You'll show me your love is true
I hope that when you relize what
Ive relized
That youll know exactly how i feel
I feel your pain weather you want
Me to or not
Its not your choice its who i am
And even though sometimes i may be a bother
I want you to know im always here
Forever and always like i promised
You where no you are my world
Till the last day of my life
You never forget you first true love
So ill never forget you
Your always on my mind
Even when it hurts me the most
I hate to admit it but i
Get so jelouse when you talk about other girls
Because i want you to be mine
Forever but i screwed that up
And i know you probly dont trust me but
One day i hope you will again
I know your always wondering why
I did what i did
Well the truth is
Im scared
Scared that if i tell you im falling for you
You wont catch me
Scared that if i tell you everything thats happened
Youll think im crazy
Scare that if i stayed with you
Someday you were gonna find someone better
Someone cuter smarter and
Most of all iom scared to love
Because every person ive ever loved has hurt me
My heart is in pieces
And you dont deserve that
You deserve someone who
Has a good heart
Someone who can talk about there feelings
Someone who can just be themselves around you
What im trying to say is
That the fact that my heart
Is cut up into pieces
And has been beat and slashed
Scraped and stabbed
It has been set a blaze
Because of all i go thorugh evryday
Im trying to say you deserve better
You deserve way better
And i was scared that one day you where gonna find
That better person
And she wouldnt be me
When it comes down to it
It simple and true
Im scared of love
Not of being with you
If i could take back every bad/ hateful / mean thing
i everr said to you
I would because without you my life feels empty
My days drag on
At night i cry
I wake up thinking of you sometimes with a tear in my eye
Try to tell me im lieing
Time and time again i try to tell
You how i really feel but it never happens
I know you didnt want a long old poem
I know i hurt you
I wish i could take it back
I wish we where still together
But now you with her
Im glad your happy
Im glad your better
I hope one day ill change just like you
I really admire you
And i when i promise you something
You know ill never breake that promise


this is dedicated to my 1st love he knows who he is and he will always be in my heart and i will always love him and yes he is my best friend