Time And Again Poem by Linda Engwall

Could you ever under mind my self confidence
If I didn’t give you permission
Buckling under the doubt I care with me
Pulled down like a weighted rock in my pocket
Time and again

Seemingly seeping into
My consciousness
No matter what I feel in the moment

Or are those excuses I just use
For why it happens
Time and again

I speak or I think I do with assurance
Such confidence
To find I am left with a lingering feeling
That it was not the way it went down at all

Shaking with disbelief
That I let it occur once again

Left questioning thoughts I believed true
Time and again