Thought Process Poem by nicky joyce

Please don’t leave me
I need you in my life
Someone I trust
Someone who knows all my sides
Please don’t go don’t leave like this
I wish you would hear me
Not just this yelling wish

I`m shouting and screaming
But it`s not being heard
I don’t know why
My heads being curd
Wish I knew what was right
All I seem to see is dull headlight
I know all my thoughts
And you know them well
But sometimes I feel
It’s a curse not a great help

I don’t understand why your still there
When all I`ve done is leave you with despair
I`ve choose someone else over you
Was it the right thing to truly do

Sitting and writing after I just had a row
Not the smartest thing to do just right now
One moment all`s just fine
The next I`m feeling I`m hung out to dry

Up and down my emotions they go
Wishing my thoughts just would unfold
Trying to clear the pain you caused
When you decided to slam down that wall

I told you so many times
Yet your choice was to close your eyes
I warned you and you didn’t listen
So in the end I turned to distance

So as I try and start again
The feeling I`m silly comes in to hen
Silent and scared I feel alone
Was supposed to have someone to call my own

Now I write this poem with head of thoughts
Feel like chucking myself at the next door
Am I right in what I choose
Was I a fool cause now I just don’t know