Things Lost Poem by Tessa Monaghan

I seem to lose
all these 'things'
to those close
i barly get my chance
before the end has home
a new record was set,
a week and a half
fastest yet.

they knew my thoughts
and feelings
and they still have the nerve
to throw me aside

i lost it all
to those i know best
i figure
im not good enough
not for them
so i say
forget it
why do i even try?
why do i even bother?
With getting close?
with having feelings
a heart
a soul.
of which are all so pure

so inicent
i seem to be getting punished
for being inicent
its wrong
its an issue
whats the point
of feelings
seeing
sencing
there is none
no reasons.

why get close
when they will
soon distance
and i lose?