The Star Poem by Jandel ALISER

The big star
(Jandel Aliser)
In a warm sunny day I saw a light came slowly in my way
It's inviting and telling me to accept what my bodies say
So I stop and felt the warm sun shine in my feet
As I heard someone says this isn't a freet

Then I ask which way I should go
I hear the soft voice says up away far than you knew
I feel the warm breeze touches my face
And hears it swoosh sounding through my ears
I had no clue where my journey goes
As I close my eyes and listen to the flows

I embrace all the peace comes through me
It felt like I been here in this place before
Nothingness and out of space is reminisce once more
As I feel myself up high soaring in the sky

Then softly a voice told me to let my soul to be free
It's a free will as she told me and you'll see
And I open my eyes and I saw bright lights
Stars are sparkles each others as I sigh

Infinite lights are so colorful and amazing
Would this be the place they called heaven?
I wonder around and see who else is here with me?
Made me realize I'm walking through a path of stars as I see

Some are small and some are very tiny
Some are bright but some are without light
I felt scared so I start yelling and ask where I am
But my voice just bounces back to me exactly what I just said

How and why could this happen I say
Is this a trick or my imagination in play?
I look at myself and my clothes were same as I wore today
Maybe I am just dreaming and I wanted to get out this way

No difference at me at all so where I was then before?
I remember a soft voice saying just relax I will give you a tour
I look around and wonder why I'm just the only one here
Would there be anybody else I could see rather than me?
I stop and close my eyes to find the voice I heard before
To ask her help and find my way home cause I can't take it anymore
As I open my eyes again and something in my eyesight glare
Suddenly I saw a huge yellow bright star as I got hypnotize
My eyes drown into its bright light and felt magnetize
I tried to fight it but it's strong and powerful
So I hold on to my feelings not to get fooled
But it's calling my name and I could not control

As I see myself walking closer and closer
She ask me not to be scared and open the door
The soft and gentle voice I swore never heard it before
Just sweep me out my feet so calming and relaxing
It's warm and so inviting but yet so loving

I grabbed the door and went in as I quickly get the comfort
Then she said just trust me and you will see the truth
I found myself looking through the mirror
And hesitate but yet I had to ask what is this a joke or miracle?

Then I saw a vision like the clips of televisions
She spoke to me and said this would answer your questions
As if I'm looking through the mirror of visions
And a sudden chilled came through me like I am in the situations
But I can't take my eyes off and felt the sensations
Then my soul start to lift up into a higher vibration

As the shimmer goes through my body and through my veins
Then I found myself hypnotized and just stared but why do I feel a pain?
It's a like an intense movies about to start
Is this could be a trick to my eyes? Pulling myself and realize
Then saw a white light and a figure of a person that I don't recognize
Walking through the beautiful garden that has infinite in size

Suddenly my heart beats fast as I felt my soul knew it all along
Should I ran and leave it all behind and keep moving on?
So I ask her this can't be me? There's no way and couldn't be
But the feeling is just right and it drags me down kept me holding on

The flowers and plants look so familiar to me
Made me mesmerize and brought happiness to my eyesight
But I still contemplate to myself and ask this isn't right
The person still keep walking down the garden but why I feel the fright
Until a stairs showed up its high and shiny that made it all bright as a light
I thought to myself I think I know this sight

As the person walk through the stairs I felt the shakes but I ignore
Then it made me realize that person and figure was my soul before
So I was there in the hall of record to write my life after all
I took a pen but I couldn't see what did I wrote down but I was thrilled
I feel like a carefree child brought my heart a free will
As I pray and ask permission to god that I have to go on
He gave me a blessings and said you shall be there soon
I closed my eyes and didn't know where I am
And saw my mother holding my hand

He said this is the life you choose to be with
So go on and be happy being a special kid
Set your soul free and come back home safely
Don't you worry I will be there whenever you call me

And I will gave you all the angels to watch over you
So don't be afraid my child I will be with you forever
You should remember were all in this one together
I grew up to stand tall and never want to fall
Didn't realize I shouldn't have to give it all

As I moved forward in my life I forget everything I wrote down
Like purpose of me being here as alive and kick in until the time end
I tried figuring out how to cope with my life
But it's all came back again even worst like cuts of a knife

As I look up and down and ask where did I go wrong?
Thought to myself maybe life is not worth accepting
Had it all but my heart and soul were still broken
Many times I gave up and say does being happy is forbidden?

But I still didn't think to call nor ask to disagree
Why does life surprises me in a bad way and never let it foresee
I cried many times and hurt my self as I laree
I got stuck into the world where I choose to be free

Tried anything and ignore all the words he once told me
I blame my life to be cruel and suffer on my own
Never look back and kept moving on
Sometimes I thought of something I had to do
But in this world I knew my life is a struggle too

Nevertheless I didn't mind who was speaking to me in my head
I keep the path and thought that was the way to straight ahead
Until someone holds me down and ask me why would you mislead?
The life you had has meanings and happiness that never ends
Calm down relax and stop to think ask why can't you comprehends?

I turn around and realize I'm still in the room
Then she speaks to me again and says
This is the life you made cant you see?
I let you roam into the world and let you be
Sometimes your thoughts is draining me
But I gave you my word and promise to hold on with you
I tried to talk to you came forward but you ignored me too
While my words flows and chances are all over the door
But you choose to close it and shut it down after all

Then you came back and ask me why?
Your life could be that special if you just learn how to fly
We once told you to let your soul soar and be free in the sky
But nothing is important to you than to be worry
All the good ones you can have it seems for you is not worthy

You should've experience life the way you wanted to be
I am you and you are me anything you do affects me
Sometimes it hurts me more than you know
But I haven't gave up because I promise you so

Any negative thought you said and done is how your life flow
I tried everything I can and let you know and I had it all show
For I am your star that will shine and guide you all the time
So get up on your feet and let us be as we are one
Your life would be short if you don't give a lot of chance

Just don't forget to show positive affirmation
Your thought would bring us life in circle and good formation
All you have to do is show what god creates for us an appreciation
And you will see how your life could turns into wonderful affection
Bring back your child soul to yourself full of laughter and action

For no other thought than being happy will set you free
Let good things in life come through you with love and agree
Embrace it all and hold your head up high and you'll see
Nothing in this world matters rather than the way you handle me

Anything in life you gave is what you deserve
But don't forget to stand up and be brave
For us we made our life being positive
So go on and be the soul as you soar in prospective

As I recouped myself from sobbing
The bright lights from the star within were singing
My heart and soul are now relief and stop from trying
Remembering what I wrote down were breathtaking
To be what I wanted to be and not all pretending

As I feel the freedom comes to me is what I was longing to see
Brings out myself for what I am and what I want to be
She gave me her words to be me
So I will let everything go and soar again and be free
I forgive myself and forgive everyone were the key
Accept everything for being me and be on my way
I look at her once again and say
Goodbye my shining star I promise you will shine bright in the sky
I know I will see you again and once again I thank you.