The Return Of My Heart's Magic Gate Poem by iron panda 23

Whats wrong with me? ?
its like somethings trying to
take over me
i cant take anymore of these
mixed emotions im feeling
my nerves are all crazinesss...yet theyre in control
my walls fell down...& i recieved alot of damage
my mind's repair was going well...
but somethings trying...or has...
gotten in the way

I thought i was insane? ?
but im not (or am i? ?) ...its people...
the ones who love how i ''supposedly''
believe it when they say they love me
when they say they care...when really they dont...
they like to see the results
after they enter my life...
after they let me think i trust them...
after i let them in my heart...and then they disappear
leaving me destroyed...

That was before...when i began to let my guard down
well now its back up...& its stronger than before
no longer will i open the gates to my heart
so dont even start walking towards it...
as if you ever would...
ive lost my trust...so now i must...
be even farther away than i was before

~~~~if you were within those gates
before and after my shield was destroyed
ill do all that i can to keep you safe
forevermore...~~~~

~IP23