The Pain Is Still There Poem by Sammje Peltier

you dont understand what the pain does to me. It physicaly hurts me, its a sharp pain in my chest. feels like im falling apart from the inside out. Cold sivers run down my spine, my heart speeds up and it feels like the walls are closing in and i see a shadow of a man, coming close to me. I start to fight but he defeats me and the bad memories come floating in. the scary dreams have only begin, its seems there is no end to this nightmare, this hell i call home. my sweet escape help me forget for awhile, but the moent i step back into this group home,
I Remember my awful story, a sad long tale with no happy ending.the tears i cry creep down at in the darkness where no one can see. No one will see the little girl i once was. my heart has been tossed and used and shattered but the pain doesnt seem to stop. All i can remember is the misery and pain. the bright and happy days have disspeared. without a trace of mercy. but you want me to forgive the very people who haunt my night and day. you want me to let go of this paiin? its impossible, dont you understand. the scares are too deeeep. forever ingraved in my skiin. my tears fall like rain. Gental and Soft, just like the sweet old girl i once was.