The Pain A Smile Can Hide Poem by Nalaysia vizcarrondo

The pain a smile can hide,
Boy if a smile cant hide pain i don't know what else could,
Birthday is coming up..
Another year without you..
Learned how to drive without you..
About to graduate Middle School this year without you,
3 More years i'll be on my way to college without you,
If a smile ain't hide my pain for all these years i don't know what did,
Sitting here thinking how life would be with you around,
But then had to remember i have a father figure already so why am i stuck on you?
Dang i don't understand it.
About to be 14 soon,
Bet You don't know when my birthday is,
Ahaa i remember yours February 14, the day i dislike the most.
My Mom was the best Mother/Father she could be && i love her for that.
We have our ups & downs But you can never say i had a miserable life.
My step dad is being the best father he can be.
If a smile ain't holding back my tears i don't know what it is.
Maybe its just the way i am.
Maybe its just that i'm starting to realize the TRUE YOU.
Maybe i'm just trying to move on in life,
Yeah i think its the 3rd one.
I don't hold grudges i forgive but never forget.
I'm trying to be nice as you can see.
All the tears i shed wasn't worth it.
All the hate i had for you was to much ENERGY.,
If i ain't make it through most of my life without a smile on my face ion know how i made it,
But yeah its getting closer to my time to shine,
when i make it big, don't come knocking on my door w / the BS.
I would rather you tell the truth then lie,
Cause trust and believe that stuff you kicked at me last time wasn't true,
I would RESPECT you more if you told the TRUTH i wouldn't have acted that way towards you,
Just because you can't grow up && take things seriously you will never get to know me.
If i ain't brush you off & forget you i would have never made it without a SMILE ON MY FACE! ! !
You CANT HOLD ME BACK NO LONGER!
No MORE TEARS,
NO MORE PAIN,
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS FADING AWAY!
SEE DADDY I'M JUST LIKE YOU!
I AM AS MEAN && COLD HEART'ED TOO!
MAKE A WISH DADDY YOUR GOING TO NEED ONE :)