Allan Gerard


The Gem In I


I've learned to push myself away
Though my heart begs me to stay
I moved into that selfless center
And they took apart all of me that remains

So, here's those feelings
Here is that order
You'll start at the top
Strip away all desire

Rip away, tear away
Make sure that nothing remains
Of ragedy and will up the Annie (ante)
The jackpots the other pea in the pod

You were supposed to make me forget!
What do you remember?
That I gambled...
How do you know?
Because I feel loss

Feeling lost is a symptom of sacrifice.
These scars can't compare to my heart
Such precision, such pain
When we would sleep we shared dreams
When she would breathe I knew we were ok

You view us as an abnormality
but to us this is the most normal thing
You try and sum us up like an equation
Occasionally trying to change the scenes
Yet, on this occasion...

I sit, watching this siamese cat stare in the mirror
And as I watch
I feel complete
Because I know she remembers me.

Submitted: Saturday, January 11, 2014
Edited: Friday, July 18, 2014

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Poet's Notes about The Poem

This is my darker version of ragedy Ann and Andy. Where they must be separated due to health complications. If they are not separated Ann has a very good chance of dying.

Andy has such a hard time with the thought of being separated from Ann that he asks the doctors to wipe his and her memories clean but they were only able to temporarily remove his memories and eventually they all start coming back to him but, for Ann, her memories stayed wiped never returning.

This is a conversation with the surgeon and the process from beginning to end of what takes place..

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  • Mihaela Pirjol (7/18/2014 3:57:00 AM)

    This poem it reminds me of a documentary I once saw, about the conjoined twins.As always written with great depth and emotional intensity.Thank you. (Report) Reply

  • Hazel Durham (1/14/2014 7:36:00 AM)

    Such depth of emotions of loss of a part of you, that made you, now gone but never forgotten, such intense beautiful lines! ! (Report) Reply

  • Ed Nigma (1/12/2014 3:49:00 PM)

    Yea, I think we can all relate to having to either walk away or having someone else walk away from us. It does feel like losing the other half of who you are. (Report) Reply

  • Ed Nigma (1/12/2014 1:09:00 AM)

    Thank you very much! Yea I was trying to pace through the poem and build it to have that type of ending. So your statement was pin-point with what I was going for! (Report) Reply

  • Louis Cecile (1/12/2014 1:06:00 AM)

    A poem where the meaning and tempo gather strength towards the end. A good write overall. (Report) Reply

  • Ed Nigma (1/11/2014 8:11:00 PM)

    Thank you heather =) it is partially about my version which is a darker version of raggedy Ann and Andy. (Report) Reply

  • Heather Wilkins (1/11/2014 6:02:00 PM)

    Anne and Andy are rag dolls made for children to play with. your poem reminds me of them. Andy was always bought and stayed with Anne nice writing (Report) Reply

  • Ed Nigma (1/11/2014 1:48:00 PM)

    Well in relation to the subject matter. Yea I couldn't think of a better title with the play on words. Being the gem in myself or I. Along with Greek and Roman mythology and the story of ragedy Ann and Andy along with thoughts on what life could possibly be like for Siamese twins being born in this manner. (Report) Reply

  • Poetheart Morgan (1/11/2014 6:34:00 AM)

    Before i start to read your poem, the tittle caught my attention. There is written GEMINI! ! ! ! A perfect tittle is not? ? ? (Report) Reply

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